Dream Catcher

Your kiss was a comet
That soared to my heart
That whispered forever
Before it could start

So selfish my endeavor
In keeping you all 
Clipped wings and captive
Just to make you my heart 

But I swallowed it whole
A tough pill at that
I stepped miles backwards
And rejected your advance

I couldn’t keep up
With the happiest pain
I’ve ever felt in this lifetime
Still not yet in vain

You left with freedom
And I hardly intact
Putting you before me
Was my bravest act

My heart is half empty
It’s missing your smile
Your emerald glances
and your childlike regard 

You left me disarmed
And hollowed inside
I refused you in ounces
I ran with my pride

I daydream about you
I mare in the night
I question my strength
For giving up the fight 

I’ll run out of time
Before all hope is gone
Only hoping forever 
Won’t be too long

My freckle in time 
My beautiful tune
Keep singing the songs 
Of our memories in you

-Jo Arroyo 8/25/2016

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Endangered

Cashed out, broken and back to zero

The girl behind the makeup
The one with tremendous heart
Once hunted as if endangered
Now treated like over-stock

The perfect pelt for his front
Used and replaced at his discretion
No longer interested in her seduction
Tossed out of his collection

The perfect pray of love deprivation
She did anything for him
Didn’t realize her captivation
Was satiating his disease

The soul mate she sought
Is a species endangered
She wanted limited edition
He sought to fulfill his needs

Blind to his arrogant nature
Never fulfilled expectations
Of his insatiable greed
For fine dimes replaced every week

Poached and dismembered
She became for this man
Unaware of her disposition
She gave her love for free

By: Me (Johanna Arroyo) 4/14/14

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I la la la

For some time now I’ve done everything in my power to ignore my heart. It’s not the best alternative but listening to my brain keeps me from going through heart break. I know that we all think we are alone but truthfully there are so many of us that cope the same way.

Break ups are terrible and like any normal human being I minimize the feelings once shared. Things that were once stated to be once in a life time are categorized as ordinary, only because I was afraid to admit that what I’ve lost was worth a damn.

How do you get things back to the way they were if you come back together? How do you get the dynamic back once it’s been lost? Do you try as hard if you’re given another chance? Do you hide and retreat in fear because in just a few months you’ll find yourself alone again? I have no idea…love isn’t taught it’s experienced and I am not an expert.

Love is like buying a pair of shoes in the wrong size. You can grow into it or you can fall into it…none more or less valid than the last.