Time passes you by and before you know it you’re wishing for a break from it all. . .but then life slows down and you can see the leaves falling to the ground ever so gently and with no rush in mind. Life falls as it may and pieces land where they should and after you wanted a break from the madness you realize the madness is your life. . .and what is life but a little bit of madness.
There is nothing I can tell you
To keep you from worries
I want to see you now
But you’re in such a hurry
Time keeps us from one another
I know you cry when you’re alone
But still you believe like no other
Force back the tears and pretend to be whole
You’re almost here kiddo
But not just yet
There is a reason we haven’t met
I warm your heart
When you feel like the last soul
I remind you, you can
No matter what you’ve been told
I try to remind you,
Don’t ignore the warm faces
Stop running before you adjoin your laces
I know that you feel
Like I’m all that you have
But don’t overlook all the others that can
Life has dealt you
Some challenges, I know
But you never headed or rejected them
You knocked them out cold
You’re a south paw kind of girl
They almost missed you before you swung
You kept showing them
You were far from done
You’re in the last leg
I know you’re exhausted
You think you deserve a break
But honey, you’re not done yet!
It’s taken some time
But no worries
We’ll finally meet
No one else knows you better
I am your goals, your life, and your dreams
I can’t wait for you to see me now
At times I wonder and ask myself how
Lost and alone in a world full of promise
I held your heart in my hands
Your beat was the strongest
I pumped through your veins
You helped me become
You lived for us both
You did all that you could
It’s great to see you now
The woman you always knew you’d become
I was driving home the other night with my son. We were just strolling along with the music in the background, it was one of those rare moments that we were completely silent. When out of the blue Jon says, “I got it!, she is not the one” (he’s speaking of a particular person who is dating someone important in his life).
So I say why not and he replies, “if she were the one they wouldn’t fight that much. . .the one is special and meant to be. . .she would be pretty and wouldn’t get mad about everything.”
Interesting. . .
“Okay Jon, what would “the one” for mommy be like?”
“he’d be respectful and nice, he’d never yell at you, oh and he wouldn’t interrupt you. . .women don’t like when men interrupt them, even I know that!”
Hahaha. . .I love my son so much. In moments when things get a little rough and I feel a little down I am glad he is the age that he is. He can reverse days of sadness with a single smile. He is my cure all. He is so kind and makes me proud to just hear him speak. He gives me hope for the future in just knowing that I have taken part in the growth of an amazing human being.
No matter how hard we try in life, all of our relationships end up much like a career. No one knows in the beginning how a relationship is going to end. However; at some point things take a different turn. We realize that we are no longer interested in that job. Or that you are doing more than you are getting paid for. In some instances we start a job as a means to an end or as a stepping stone to our true career path. No matter the situation I have come to realize that no matter how amicable the ending is. No matter how much all parties agree to disagree, there is always going to be water cooler talk. Someone is always going to say there was foul play regardless of what the individuals say out loud. In the end the truth always comes out, whether you are a slacker and are just getting by until the bitter end. No matter how insignificant your job is, it will always be the next step toward improving yourself and getting closer to what you really want.
I went to the beach this Sunday and spent the day getting carried away by the water. I love being at the beach. There is just something about the whole environment that keeps me at ease.
Something about the beach made me think about my life as it is now. Almost as if the beach and my life are on the same path. I floated around letting the water take me in whatever direction it desired. The waves always took me further than I wanted. A few times I got battered just as I thought the last wave was gone.
My life has been full of big waves lately and though I may have never planned on going in this direction I am always able to fight like hell to get where I want to. My life has drifted me off into some direction that I never knew existed. I know that no matter what I will survive this unfamiliar grey area. I know that I will rise above it eventually.